A Small Reflection

In five days I will be in New York City. In six days I will be 21. Both of these are Big Exciting Things and are getting more exciting the closer they get. I should be terrified at least a little, right? Nope. False. That is not something that is in my mind right now at all. Now, It might be during the 2 hour plane ride where I will be trying really hard to not have a mental breakdown about flying through the air thousands of miles above solid ground in a giant piece of metal, but that is not right now thank goodness. I am excited. But not bouncing off the walls excited. I have an acting teacher who enjoys using the "little blue stove flame" as an example of quiet intense energy that a person will experience before a complete outburst, and that's where I feel like I am right now. It's a great feeling.
Ultimately, I am wondering how much my 2 weeks in the Springboard program will effect what I want to do with my life. I am an incredibly indecisive person and anytime someone asks me what I want to do with my life I don't know what to tell them. In a perfect world, I would listen to little seven year old optimistic me and move to New York City right out of college and be an actor. Unfortunately we don't live in a perfect world, of which the realist in my head keeps reminding me, so I become indecisive because I can't decide what other part of theatre I like the best because I like all of it. Which really isn't a bad problem to have until people tell you that you have to make a decision and then I want to tell them to go away and shut up because I can do anything. Or at least attempt to do anything because failure is bound to happen somewhere if you want to do everything, but that should never ever ever stop anyone from trying. Ever.
So, pretty much, these upcoming weeks are probably, in some way, going to be life-changing, or mind-changing, or something along those lines. This summer is going to be a big one....Bring it on.

Countdown.

In exactly 2 weeks from right now I will be in New York City. 

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That is all.

This has nothing to do with theatre

BUT IT'S STILL IMPORTANT. This Kansas governor signed a bill that can allow pharmacists and doctors the RIGHT TO DENY women birth control. This is just wrong! It is unsafe and not healthy and giving power to the wrong people. Seriously, a pharmacist can refuse to fill a woman's prescription for birth control if it goes against their religion! Not the woman's religion, the pharmacists religion! I personally view this bill as an attack on women, some probably don't, but I do. It pisses me off when it is just assumed that birth control is only used to have sex. Some of us use it for medical reasons. In fact, birth control is always used for medical reasons because if you get preggo that involves a lot of medicine and a lot of hospital time. Anyways, here's the article if you want to read it yourself: http://www.addictinginfo.org/2012/05/15/kansas/

I want to tell all of the men in government who have panels about birth control without any women present, or are making laws to limit women's choices, or deny them access to medicine they are paying for, or making false assumptions just to scare people: STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO WITH MY VAGINA.

One Step Closer!

Today I received The Packet of Information from Springboard! It included yet another welcome letter, a map of NYC, info about dates, directions, clothing, resumes, monologues, housing, transportation, and a section saying they're still making an official schedule. So it's super exciting! But I'm still in the dark about what I'm going to be doing. But it's still SUPER EXCITING. One of my favorite parts of welcome letter #2 is when they tell me that they're going to show us "fulfilling jobs backstage...career possibilities that you may not have learned about it college."
This concept was so foreign to me because my first thought was: who doesn't learn about backstage stuff in college? We are required to do things outside of acting in order to graduate! And then I remembered not everyone goes to a liberal arts college. Right. Gold star for getting ahead of the curve!...kind of.
So anyways, now, I just want to start packing and making to do lists and anything that isn't waiting. I am easily the most impatient person I know and when I'm excited about something the only thing I want to do is obsess over it and plan outfits. Sadly, I decided to take a couple of online summer classes on top of all this craziness so I need to learn about the sociological and psychological effects of illicit drugs instead. I also need to take care of my puppy because she isn't feeling well. The poor thing keeps eating grass.


Also, Randy Lutterman's phone number is all over this packet, so I feel like she's a friend or something like that.

Just to reiterate: I'M SO EXCITED!

Rachel McNugget

Ryan Gosling is wonderful in everything. I really enjoy that he knows he's a meme and is okay with that. Respect.
I just realized I have 25 days until I leave for New York. That's less than a month. Also, since I'm no longer up at school, I feel like I can't get McDonalds anytime I want. Mainly because it's farther away and there's real food at my disposal so I should probably eat that since it's better for me and what not. Silly health.

25 DAYS.

It's official!

I'm going to be an intern in Chicago! Yay! That means I have about 3 days between getting back from New York and moving up to Chicago to do all of my laundry and re-pack. I'm gonna be a pro at packing by the end of the summer. I'm super excited because that means I get to learn about two theatre scenes in two different big cities, which are the top two place I'm looking at moving to after graduation next year. I'm going to get to compare and contrast them and probably come up with a legitimate pros and cons list instead of one that I base off movies and stories from friends. Now, I just have to figure out a living situation.

I've realized I will never have nothing on my to-do list.

I've heard that's what being an adult means, but I kind of don't want to believe it. At least, not yet.

The countdown begins!

This summer might be insane. I say might because I have no clue as to what exactly what I will be doing. In just under one month I will be in New York City attending the Springboard NYC program, staying at the YMCA for about two weeks. I keep forgetting that this is actually happening and then I remember and get excited all over again. I get to talk with working professionals, workshop, go see Broadway/Off-Broadway shows, and attend the dress rehearsal of the TONY AWARDS! It's going to be busy and hectic and crazy and probably going to be the main focus of this blog. In 6 weeks I may or may not be going to work in Chicago as an intern at a professional theatre company. I just need them to get back to me about a schedule. and where I'd be working. And what exactly I'd be doing. I just want to know everything and go do it! Honestly, I'm absolutely terrified about everything because it means I'm just that much closer to the real world, but it's going to be great. It's going to be wonderful. And all of the internet can read about it right here. So, enjoy reading as I countdown to my Springboard experience!